Skip to main content
Illustration of people sitting and standing

New here?

Chat with other people who 'Get it'

with health professionals in the background to make sure everything is safe and supportive.

Register

Have an account?
Login

cancel
Showing results for 
Search instead for 
Did you mean: 

Something’s not right

Rubyrose1
Senior Contributor

losing hope

Feeling very tired today my eyes are tired and are stinging, so typing this is pretty difficult right now but I have been looking online for a place of support as I am at the moment in a place where I don't know where to turn anymore.

I have 20 plus years of experience with mental health services and have experienced mental health issues for as long as I can remember but if I had to guess it would have started in early primary school.  Today I'm sitting here knowing that I need help but I feel like there is really no point in going to see my GP or try to talk to my psychiatrist as they appear to either not understand or don't really care, overworked and or burnt-out more like it. I'm have finally hit that point of I'm tired of the changing of medications and going off them to just be left with withdrawal symptoms that will not go away, I'm tired of being frightened by what might happen and the unknown, I have a teenage daughter that needs me and I do not want her having to keep dealing with a mother that stuggles all the time and no one to support us. this last change of medication has been the worst by far even though the side effects of the last medication have eased the withdrawal symptoms will not go away.

I've been to the doctor and spoken to my psychiatrist and told them that I have been more suicidal now than ever in my life and they both have just said take this new pill and have denied that the past medication would have had withdrawal symptoms and just left it at that.  The anxiety that I've had recently had me going to the hospital thinking I was having a heart attack but was told by the nurse it was a severe panic attack and that the medications my doctors were giving me were the reason, so what do I do?  I have so much fear inside me that I can't even bring myself to do anything, I just sit here and try to relax and try to make myself get up and do stuff around the house but I just get this feeling inside me and I don't move, it's so frustrating, it doesn't seem as bad if I have company but the company isn't something that I have a lot of and if I'm alone I really struggle to motivate myself at all. I have so many creative ideas in my head and I want to get them out but I just can't get my body to do it, I don't understand why this is happening 

 

10 REPLIES 10

Re: losing hope

Hey there @Rubyrose1,

 

I'm the moderator this afternoon. I'm sorry to hear you've been having a really tough time. I can see you're feeling exhausted with your mental health journey and feeling pretty confused about where you are with it now. It all sounds very debilitating. 

I'm glad you've connected with us here. The SANE community are amazing and i'm sure you will hear from some members soon. In the meantime, I'm pretty concerned about your well-being today and will send you an email to talk privately.

 

Here for you,

 

Sphinxly

 

 

Re: losing hope

@Rubyrose1  I replied in the introduce yourself thread, so forgive me if I double up.

 

I’m really sorry you are struggling so much, and that your Dr and psych aren’t hearing you. Have you ever been to a counsellor, someone you can talk to, not just medicate you ? I know finding a good fit can be hard, but being heard is really important, it was for me anyway.

 

Your withdrawals sound awful. 

 

I dont know if you feel like looking around the forums, but there are lots of us here struggling with many different and difficult things. Understanding really helps, no judgment does also. 

 

Its good to see you here.

Re: losing hope

thank you maggie for your message

yes, I've tried counselors and psychologists all sorts of medications, different doctors. the problem is that where I'm from the medical systems is underfunded and none of the specialist doctors hang around for very long, so every time you have an appointment you get thrust onto a different doctor and they then decide that my diagnosis is something totally different, I'm so tired of this system over 20 years of this crap and I'm finally done! 😞

Re: losing hope

Hi @Rubyrose1 

Just wanted to say that I read your post and it sounds like you've really had enough of the mental health system. I don't have answers on that one, but I hope you find some friends here. It has been life changing for me because people just get it.

I'll tag you in a thread re motivation that has helped me when I feel stuck and imobilised by anxiety.

Take care

Re: losing hope

thank you so much for hearing me, yes I'm just tired of it all, I want to just have a happy life without all the fear and anxiety, mentally I just don't think I can go through another change of medication, just the thought of it just makes me want to disappear 

Re: losing hope

@Rubyrose1  I can certainly understand where you are coming from. The system is broken, in my opinion anyway. That doesn’t help the frustration and pain you are left with though.

 

Just try chatting around the forums, see how you feel. Like everything, it takes time to build up to a sense of being here. Getting to know others, sharing the load.

 

Sending some 💕💕💕

Re: losing hope

thank you Maggie , I will try but right now even just reading is tiring answering even harder, I am really pushing myself to communicate

Re: losing hope

Well just let us sit with you. @Rubyrose1 . No need to respond, just know we are with you. 💙💙💙

Re: losing hope

@Rubyrose1  Just dropping off some early morning 💕💕💕. Letting you know you are in my thoughts. I hope for some moments of light in your day today, however small they might be. Take care. Just know you are not alone. 💜💜

Illustration of people sitting and standing

New here?

Chat with other people who 'Get it'

with health professionals in the background to make sure everything is safe and supportive.

Register

Have an account?
Login

For urgent assistance

Ruah Community Services supports and empowers vulnerable and disadvantaged people so they can create meaningful change in their lives.

13 RUAH (13 7824)

255 Hay Street, Subiaco, Western Australia 6008

connecting@ruah.org.au

Ruah Community Services acknowledges and respects the Traditional Aboriginal and Torres Strait Islander Custodians/Owners of the land on which we work, live and build our lives, families, and communities. We pay our respects to the First Peoples of this country, their cultures and Elders past, present and emerging.