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[tyme]

Hey @Patches59 ,

Thanks for the tag. I'm following along. I can see that what the psychologist does can cause you stress. Good on you for pointing it out to her. It means like she's working through it herself.

How are you travelling otherwise? 

Thinking of you.

[Patches59]

Not sure what you mean by “It means like she’s working through it herself” @tyme 

with $250+ out of pocket each appointment where, at times, entire 45mins is taken up by my therapist explaining multiple times using the same words ne specific thing … leaves me feeling my money and time is not being spent to best use.

I was hoping to get thoughts etc to help me look at options from as many avenues as possible.  After being in similar situation approx 12mths ago which caused negative ripples, I don’t know if I can or am best to continue seeing here.  Atm know I don’t want to.  Don’t feel comfortable about continuing with her.

apart from that I’m fairly ok physically.  Another walk today, about double distance of yesterday’s walk.  Only small amount of discomfort not long before getting home.  Only a few hundred steps today,  huge improvement than last 6mths [edited by moderator]

[tyme]

Hey @Patches59 ,

What I mean is that she realises her issue and it's something she needs to work on herself. 

But I can see how frustrating it can be to pay all of that money out of pocket and then be told the same thing again, and again, and again.... despite you pointing it out that she does that.

Have you been through SANE guided recoveyr? Not sure if that's an option for you.

I'm glad you are kicking goals and making improvements with yourself physically. It's not about the distance, but the progress you are making. 

Well done 🙂

Do you have anything planned for tomorrow?

[Patches59]

I’m finding I’m disassociating at times when the repetition starts and not realising it’s happening at the time @tyme.  

About a week after the last appointment I was sitting at home thinking back over our conversation.  It was only then I realised her words sounded like were muffled or coming through thick fog.  In that instance at home the flashbacks hit involving repetition linked to verbal abuse when I was a teenager.

I haven’t done, or even applied to do, SANE guided recovery.  I’ll apply tonight.  Either way, I feel next appointment with psychologist may not be 100% pleasant

nothing interesting planned for tomorrow.  Have couple baskets laundry to put away plus other general housework.    Try to take hr or 2 each day for self care …continuing to build alphabet brick bear or mosaic colour by number main 2 things