Tabaluga's

[Dreamy]

@avant-garde that was me yesterday I didn't bother cos i was let down so many times and honestly couldn't handle being let down again cos it would have tipped me over the edge. But then I hit a point where I really had to reach out and low and behold I was let down and it sent me spiralling out of control. 

I do hope you are ok though, I'm always here for you ❤️

[avant-garde]

I know you are @Dreamy, I'm frustrated and sad but that's life you know? 

I had my social worker... she left me high and dry with no next steps because she believes I didn't need a therapist while I wait on another waitlist... potentially 4-6 months... so just really hurting

[Dreamy]

@avant-garde oh that's rough. I'm really sorry to hear and i can imagine its left you feeling very hurt. 

Sending you hugs sweet ❤️

[avant-garde]

@Dreamy 

What's worse though is that she was gaslighting me in session and sharing her political views...

I had no control or anything and I haven't been able to talk about it while being in crisis mode

How about you sweetheart?

[Dreamy]

@avant-garde that really just makes things so much worse. 

Hopefully when things calm down a bit you'll be able to talk about it. 

I'm struggling, I can't sleep cos my thoughts are incredibly intense and it's taking every bit of strength to not act on those thoughts. I'm exhausted and at risk of having a seizure cos my body needs rest. 

[avant-garde]

@Dreamy 

I can understand that, seizures are one of my subconscious defence mechanisms. 

You're doing so well sweetheart, but regardless of what happens, we're here and we care.

I know I haven't really interacted with you much recently, but I do consistently pray for you and think of you because you matter to me. I do notice and ask when I notice you missing. 

[Dreamy]

@avant-garde i have epilepsy and stress and a lack of sleep are big triggers for me.

Thankyou. I was just let down by a crisis service again. Yes let's delve into all the trauma and ask how I'm feeling and if I'm feeling suicidal, then after responding with my feelings and answering yes, they just turn around and say well it might be a good time to take a break, take care and goodnight, and the chat gets ended. 

We all have things going on so it's hard to keep up with interactions sometimes. I appreciate your prayers and kind words. I think about you often and love it when I do hear from you. Really hope things improve for you, you deserve to get the support you need ❤️

[Dreamy]

@Bunniekins are you on at all please? 

[Bunniekins]

@TAB  good morning and good luck for today TAB. you'll be fine 😄

[Bunniekins]

@Dreamy  sorry wasnt talking last night was too damn tired and feel asleep. hope you are a little okay. will be back on later. take good care of yourself. love bunx