@Former-Member sorry to hear you are so unsupported by family. I was too for many years - but a different situation from yours. I was also a single mum, and my child was an only child so I can relate to that and know how hard it can be going it alone. But also how special the bond is between 1 adult 1 child families.
I also cut contact with my family for years, and even having some contact now I have to maintain strict boundaries with most of them, otherwise they can trigger me too much. e.g. I never see my mother alone any more. She denies my reality, changes what she says is the truth of the past, and even told me she lies sometimes.
The loneliness is hard. This last year is the first time in decades that I've joined a couple of activities in the community and met some new people. I went to bridge lessons and do water tai chi. It took ages to find things I wanted to do, and I did them with support (I have NDIS support workers). There is also something called 'Meet Ups' that has all sorts of groups. And a lot of libraries have things like computer groups, book groups etc. Community centres are a good place to find out what's on too, and notice boards that even supermarkets have these days. Just some ideas for you.
It's hard to overcome social phobia and stigma, takes practice, but I just want to say there is hope. It's still a learning time for me, and I have setbacks some days, but it is getting a bit easier. Despite being a natural introvert, which it's ok to be.
Take care and hope today is a peaceful one for you.
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