My Mosaic

[Bow]

Thanks @Ru-bee  I’d really appreciate that 

[AuntGlow]

Would you like to talk about your day with your CM/SW, or just have a little chat about other things? @Bow ☺️

[Bow]

@AuntGlow  If I can be honest with you, I’m feeling heaps hesitant in talking with you. I totally understand that you get busy and maybe this is just me, but it happens frequently. It often takes you hours, like today 4hrs, to reply to me, but you’re having conversations with others replying multiple times. It’s just really hard to open myself up to someone to feel like I go unheard. That has happened so many times to me to my supports in real life and it just adds layers of trauma. 

im feeling heaps vulnerable tonight and really not doing ok and I’d prefer if you don’t have the time then I just not say anything and perhaps I’ll just log off. 

hope you understand, this has just been my experience the last couple of weeks. 

[AlwaysMyself]

Hey @Bow , saw your post in the 'recents posts list and just wanted to respond because I can see you're having a really rough time right now.

I hear your pain, and I too struggle with those thoughts sometimes of people not paying attention or giving focused time when im really in need. I hear you, it can be so painful to not know why its happening.

I'll be around for about 20min until my dinner is cooked if you would like someone focused/dedicated to chat to now? Just tag me if so. *hugs if you like hugs*

[AuntGlow]

Oh, @Bow, I am SO sorry. I didn't realise the space impacted you so much. I do take a little bit to respond to many people, as I always want to communicate intentionally and thoughtfully. If I am not responding straight away, it will only ever be because I am sitting with what you have shared, doing some backend stuff (the things ya'll don't get to see!), participating in online groups, taking a cheeky meal break, or responding to someone else (and not because you're not a priority, but because I am trying to give my time to as many people as possible). 

Your feelings here are completely valid and I never want to be the cause for you feeling unheard. 

I am so glad you shared this with me and felt comfortable enough to be honest. I will be here if you need to talk tonight and can make sure I respond with less space in between replies. Please let me know your thoughts. ☺️💛

[Bow]

Thanks @AlwaysMyself  I appreciate you taking the time to respond to my post. 
im not really feeling up to it tonight, but thank you. I hope you enjoy your dinner 

[Bow]

Thanks for responding @AuntGlow 

im not going to hang around it’s not feeling safe 

[AuntGlow]

Okay, @Bow, that is completely fair. I really hope you are able to find something soothing to do for yourself this evening. We will absolutely be here if you are needing more support later. 💛

[Ru-bee]

Hey @Bow how has your day been so far?

[Bow]

Hi @Ru-bee 

im not long home from my psychology appointment and it wasn’t very good. 

how r u?