Hi @Snowie
im having a pretty rough day to be honest. Rough night. Been in a fair bit of pain on and off the last couple of days too.
was due to see my CM this morning, turned up, checked in, waited. Then a [edited by moderator] guy comes out. I was annoyed. My CM was off sick. I’ve told them many times that I’d prefer they let me know if my appointments get canceled so I can decide if I want to come in and check in with a random. He offered to go get a female worker, I said ok. My SW happened to be with me, only cause I was seeing her afterwards and she was just early. She already knew I wasn’t ok cause I didn’t go to group yesterday and didn’t respond her to text.
Then a totally random lady came out, at least it d spoken with the [edited by moderator] guy a couple of times. My SW went in with me. I was just annoyed. She asked annoying questions when I was already not in a good way. She kept getting the name of my CM wrong over and over again. I really didn’t have many words and just wasted her time. Only good that perhaps came of it was that both my SW and I expressed our frustration over me not having a psychologist and that I really need one. She actually asked if I had been put on the wait list and I said nope, only that I might do DBT but again no therapists. She is going to tell my CM that I want to be on the wait list for psychology.
i chased up a script and then needed to leave. It was more distressing than helpful.
chatted with my SW for a little bit. She understands how much I am struggling at the moment. She finally sees and gets.., and said it….. I am often quiet. They don’t hear from. I’m not often able to put words out. So they think I am ok, but I am really not. I spend my entire days fighting to just survive.
sorry that’s all negative. Nothing positive to share today except that maybe they’ll put me on the wait list? But I have no doubt my CM has to agree to do that.
sorry again
