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cdtofi
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Bit more of my life

Hi there again

Had a draining few days. Not real sure, well I suppose I really am sure why.?

‘So I’m trying to tell a lie. Just joking

I wouldn’t lie to save myself


Well that reminds me of a memory 🥲

I had this older brother

My mother would say Who done this or that

Always cdtofi  done it mum


TW: abuse

 

Content/trigger warning

So he would hold me down on the bed while I was physically abused [edited by moderator]. Knowing full well that he done it. He done it all my life.

always lying about me. I was known to be the liar of the house just because of him.
I was raped. I was not believed about anything. So in the end I just said I lied.. Then I was punished. I went to school had to come straight home from the bus. Shut the gate & don’t go out of it for 3 months.

 


Then as I was growing up he threw me on the floor but I was saved someone came thru the door. 
‘I’m gonna tell mum on you”

She won’t believe you

He was correct.

 

He was maybe the worst person(there was a heap) in my life.

Fancy having to grow up with a brother like that

My father said to the person interviewing me get the truth out of her anyway you can

So I was physically abused. That should not be allowed. I was a child.
‘The story did not change.

 

Everywhere I went when I was growing up abuse, abuse, I did not have to go far. I lived with it daily just by being born a girl in that family.

 

My father said to my mother. Don’t show them any Emotion I want them to grow up TOUGH.  No love, nothing. No one to turn to for help as no one would believe me

Sorry if I have said too much. Just telling the truth

Its no wonder I am a recluse aye???


It’s just a shame the Government wasn’t in back then to protect kids. Because that’s what I needed

 

Not sure what I’m allowed to write on here

 

Recovery Club…..

 

Well  I believe that’s what I’m starting this week.

Bit excited

50 mins first up.

Not sure that will be long enough to get all the animals out of my head in 1 session. But will see how I go.

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Re: Bit more of my life

Hi @cdtofi thank you for sharing some of your story with us. Just letting you know I have edited your post and added a TW to be in line with the guidelines - let us know if you have any questions about this! 

 

You have not said 'too much' - in fact, when it comes to abuse I think it is important for us to be able to share our story - as so many would shut us down for speaking about things that make them 'uncomfortable'. The guidelines just ask that we don't share any graphic details such as descriptions of violence, or SH/suicide methods. So again I say thank you for sharing! 

 

Recovery Club is awesome, would love to hear about your experiences as you go! 

Re: Bit more of my life

Hey @cdtofi ,

 

How are you today? Hope your Recovery Club session goes well for you. Is that the groups?

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