22-06-2025 10:14 PM
22-06-2025 10:14 PM
Hello beautiful @avant-garde, how you feeling sweet?
22-06-2025 10:17 PM
22-06-2025 10:17 PM
my neck hurts, I still feel embarrassed, but my brother liked his present. I get my hair cut tomorrow
How are you?
22-06-2025 10:21 PM
22-06-2025 10:21 PM
@avant-garde have you got a wheat bag to put on your neck? I'm glad your brother liked his present. Oh a haircut sounds lovely 😊.
I'm very emotional and a bit shaken tonight. I brought myself a weighted stitch teddy today ♥️.
22-06-2025 10:24 PM
22-06-2025 10:24 PM
@Dreamy weights on my neck make me feel strangled, I'll have a shower shortly
Do you want to talk about why you feel shaky and emotional?
Or I can share last nights poem with you where I'm bagging out nursery rhymes
22-06-2025 10:32 PM
22-06-2025 10:32 PM
@avant-garde totally understand that, I'm the same, even my hoodies i have to constantly pull away from my neck cos I feel like it's strangling me. A shower will hopefully help ease it.
I put up a post earlier tonight to say that I was leaving the forums (there's alot of reasons behind this one of the main being safety) but after doing it i kind of stopped to think about it. This community and the connections that I've made here mean the world to me and to lose that really scares me. So I've been a bit of an emotional wreck tonight, just taking it moment by moment.
Please do share your poem, I love to read them 😊
22-06-2025 10:40 PM
22-06-2025 10:40 PM
We've got you girl, running from help isn't going to stop them looking, it's just going to remove one of your survival strategies.
As a person who knows how to run, what I've learned is that the communities I build around me are why I get through the turbulent times.
Running could be the worst thing because it eliminates support and structure from your life, it eliminates the people who are seeking to protect you and makes you more vulnerable.
Ok poem
head, shoulders, knees, toes
eyes, ears, mouth, nose
how bizarre these rhymes can be
thank goodness it's not up to me
mother Hubbard checked the cupboard
to get the poor dog a bone
don't bones go in the freezer?
want the dog to eat the mould?
Twinkle twinkle little star
how I wonder what you are?
they're balls of gas from light-years
they're not that small, just far
little jack Horner in his corner
eating a whole pie
why does this make him good?
is it saying it's good to lie?
baa baa black sheep and it's wool
bags and bags and bags all full
apparently the sheep can talk
and say how much wool she's got
humpty dumpty sat on a wall
then suddenly he has a great fall
I didn't think that eggs could sit
let alone climb up bricks
Rock a bye baby in the tree top
then the wind blows and the branch drops
who was the woman who first put them there
since when did the mother just not care
I'm a little teapot short and stout
it apparently has both handle and spout
then it gets all steamed up
so it screams and whistles to then shut up
Hey diddle diddle the cat and fiddle
the cow jumps over the moon
from puss in boots to a cow that's loose
how did they get out?
where's the logic in nursery rhymes
are they just fun to sing?
goodness gracious woopty dee
thank goodness it's not up to me
22-06-2025 10:48 PM
22-06-2025 10:48 PM
Thankyou @avant-garde, you don't know how much i needed to hear that. This community is all i have and it's my only support network and I know that's why they are trying so hard to destroy that.
That poem is amazing and really made me smile, thankyou so much for sharing it ♥️. I want to find my poems that I wrote when I was younger so that I can share some of them with you, I'm just not sure where the book is. Having to move around so much things have been misplaced so I'm hoping it's still around somewhere.
22-06-2025 11:12 PM
22-06-2025 11:12 PM
I'm glad I made you smile 🙂
I've gotten to a point in my life where I genuinely like my life and have people around that love me and will protect me, have protected me.
I know people are looking for me but they have taken too much from me for me to give up now without a fight. They won't take this life I've built from me. I won't let them. And the family I've built won't let them either.
Safer together sweetheart
22-06-2025 11:19 PM
22-06-2025 11:19 PM
@avant-garde I'm so glad that you have people around you that love and protect you. You are truly so amazing and your strength is inspiring ♥️
Other than here on the forums i have absolutely noone. So there's noone to protect me, and noone to turn to for love and support. So when things are tough it's here that I turn to so that I don't feel so alone.
I don't want to lose this space but my mind is just a mess as to what I should do. I've told myself I'm going to sleep on it tonight and see how I feel about it all tomorrow.
Thankyou for being here sweet ♥️
22-06-2025 11:26 PM
22-06-2025 11:26 PM
You leaving doesn't hurt them, it hurts you.
But enough on that, I think I've said enough 😅
This week I have more birthday presents to figure out, one being my trauma sister, the other being my little sister.
Need to find a nursery rhyme DVD for next months baby rhyme time movie thing, and pick up some buttercream for around the edge of the cake to stick the kit kat fingers to
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