06-04-2023 11:21 PM
06-04-2023 11:21 PM
@LeChuck Yes , well as you well know, owning a horse and riding one are worlds apart.
I sit on it, threaten , beg , plea , n pray, every inch to get forward progress out of him,
Then when it comes to turning him around to head home, He has no brakes,
Full unstoppable gallop. If you moved my barn to the end of the track at Flemington,
He would take home the cup.
So, ya clawed yer way out of the whole mate. Well be sure to fill that whole back in so ya dont step back into it , partner. BuuurP. . . Faaar . ter christmas should be along soooon... Umm Arrr
I mean easter, Ahhh Just gimme the bottle and throw a bucket of water over me in the morn.
Know what. . . part from 'cool hand Meggle', I think it only took me a day to scare every
one else outta town. Some of my posts would have been a hanging offence on any other thread 3 way split. . way to go mate..
Look after yourself and happy easter chuck. . . tonys Mb 1
07-04-2023 07:22 AM - edited 07-04-2023 07:33 AM
07-04-2023 07:22 AM - edited 07-04-2023 07:33 AM
Wow @Oaktree, I know that post was for Tony's, so I hope it's ok for me to take something from it, because it is so nice to hear some of your back story and get to know you a little better.
It's so damn inspiring for me that you've been married 30 years and had kids despite bipolar. You have no idea how much I needed to hear that right at this moment. I'm in a strange place where I can picture the life I want, married and with kids, but feel like it's out of reach for me. So thank you. Your post has really inspired me and helped me take my little spark of hope and fan it into a flame. (It's still a small flame, let's say a candle rather than a campfire, but thats huge for me)
You're so amazingly strong to get past it your youth and bipolar and build a life for yourself. And you are such a wonderful person. Thanks for trusting us and sharing. You've helped me.
I'm happy to do a bit of a backstory too if you'd like me to. But unlike yours which is quite inspiring, mine is genuinely just long and boring.
LeChuck xx
07-04-2023 09:22 AM
07-04-2023 09:22 AM
I would love to hear your backstory @LeChuck
I am glad that you gleaned some hope from mine. It hasn’t always been an easy road being married with bipolar. I have at times put my husband through hell. But he loves me and knows that when I am unwell that he has to weather the storms. He is a very kind, caring and compassionate man and I am so lucky that he is mine! He was also great with the kids when I was in hospital. He had a way of explaining that the illness was not me. Anyway…
Meggle
07-04-2023 09:27 AM
07-04-2023 09:27 AM
Thanks @Oaktree, I do have a partner like that, very caring and gentle. I think we will be ok but that was exactly what I needed to hear yesterday! So thanks. I'm about to head into group for the day so I'll write a little about myself later 🙂
07-04-2023 09:30 AM
07-04-2023 09:51 AM
07-04-2023 09:51 AM
Boundaries. For about the millionth time!
07-04-2023 10:16 AM
07-04-2023 10:16 AM
Oh have fun with that. I am doing a couple of groups next term. Act Group which is about Acceptance, Commitment and I forget what T stands for. The graduate group which is just a facilitated chat about celebrations and challenges. Also a fortnightly coffee group. Busy busy.
Meggle
07-04-2023 03:20 PM
07-04-2023 03:20 PM
I am keen to hear more about you guys. How is life on the farm?
While I wait to hear from you here is a little more about me.
Favourite number = 8
Favourite colour = purple
Favourite car = ute (I want one)
Favourite animal = horse
Favourite foodstuff = potato (any way they come)
Favourite drink = Pepsi Max
Favourite person = my Husband
I love babies but no more for me as I am way too old to keep up with them.
I would love Grandbabies but my kids don’t currently want children.
I like to travel and desperately want to go back to America to visit with some good friends that I haven’t seen since 2016. We are in contact over Marco Polo and Messenger.
I consider myself to be a nice person but I can be reactive to the way I am treated. Not proud of that but I think it’s a leftover from the way I was raised.
Yes @tonys I do think my bipolar is related to my childhood as well as the stress I was under in the Army. I was diagnosed at the age of 19 which was quite young back in those days.
I decided when I was diagnosed that I would live the best life I possibly could despite it. I think I have been successful. It was my life’s dream to have kids and I believe that I was born to be a Mother.
Meggle
07-04-2023 04:55 PM
07-04-2023 04:55 PM
hi @Oaktree well my friend, you are so honest and open, I suppose I better take the big black coat n hat of, give you a glimpse. Now usually I don't because folks think, well, . . .
poor fella, fact is though, I recon I might be the happiest fella, both sides of the black stump.
So, news in brief. Born O/Seas. War. Folks died in conflict i think, another couple used me and my brother {little kids} to help em get out. Canada then aus. Lived out the bush in tin shed
on a remote farm with drunk old man. Me, the brother, one plate of food between, us twice daily. Liked using my face for an ashtray. A boot n fist man
Worked dusk till dawn. Old man used to bang on shed with fists till me and my bigger brother
would fight. winner gets fed. He gets drunk. we get payback on him when he's got a good stagger going . . .. then do it all again next day.
No school. then few foster parents, Poor buggers. Church had a go at taming me, more poor buggers. . . I was a big tall kid. trained up, So better for everyone, when I hit the streets, I thrived living on the street. . . Till skin heads set fire to me and my lady one night when we were passed out in a dumpy bin.
Moved to the bush, farm laboured. then North Canada Yellowkknife. Logging and mines.
Then back to Africa, worked a job that required "autisticaly" still n stady hands and concentration.
Then finally back to aus, Travelled the country, pulled from one job to another, Tents, cars, or just roll out the swag. Eventually bought a motor home.
Saved up a big pile of green over the years and got talked into buying a farm with a forestry
Lease. . . . few fires , drought, n floods, but nothing worth winging about. Had a lot of luck.
Got a place on the coast for my cousin, trying to retire there. and hired a book keeper, who sorted my life out and got me help on the NDIS I have curvature of the spin, Or as they say in town, I'm a hunchback. Autism L2 and brain injury, and permanent A Fib. Part from that I'm fine
I look very scary Big N tall but I'm a whimp. Eat more than my horse, bare feet or thongs,
Lots of bad habits. Big house, Bigger Mess. . lots of pickers here at the moment and couple of them are taking control so I don't have to work like an animal anymore.
I'm very mischievous but well intentioned. When my helping hand is bitten, A wall goes up
as it should. Love my fire , fishing bush ,but also love the beating heart of the big cities,
and all the culture. Mostly sleep in an underground bunker under the house with my music'
or tin leantoo, next to the river. with rods n fire, too undomesticared for the house. Life is good
Oy. . wake up. . . ! I'm yapping here. I have a old Hz Landcruiser ute and always have spuds going in the coals too @Oaktree I use pepsi max too, cleans gaskets of engine blocks in the tractor shed. Purple n green colours, purple wins by a nose.
How are you and @LeChuck , Chucks turn to show his hand one day.
The old poker face. Lucky it aint strip poker, we'd be shivering,
Be back fer a wisky later. Take care you two scoundrels. tonys moon base 1
07-04-2023 05:12 PM
07-04-2023 05:12 PM
Ey @tonys
Sounds like you had some hard luck as a kid and a young man but thanks to your own hard work things have definitely turned around for you! I would love to live on a farm. I was living in a country town when I met my husband. Unfortunately he’s city folk. Would love to move back to the country someday.
Sorry about the loss of your folks. War sucks! Luckily for me I have always lived in Australia so can only imagine what real conflict is.
I am glad that you never really got tamed. You are more fun the way you are. Authentically you! I love that!
@LeChuck has promised to give their backstory when they get back from their group. I am looking forward to that too.
@tonys thanks for being brave and trusting me with some of your story, I look forward to getting to know you better. I am glad that you don’t have to work quite so hard anymore. Good that you have workers that you can rely on.
Sounds like you and I would be good mates if we knew each other. I love nature and I could eat your spuds and drink your Pepsi Max. Oh and my house is also always messy. Housework is not my favourite pass time.
Meggle
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