Trying makes it worse

[LeChuck]

I'm really sorry to hear that @EternalFlower , I'm in hospital at the moment too. I'm sorry I've been a bit absent on the forums, I really hope things start toget better for both of us!

[Appleblossom]

Hey @LeChuck 

@EternalFlower 

Sorry you are not doing well and feeling that way about your "team".

Therapist should be in charge of some therapy, (it is the job description) case managers maybe do tend to refer and juggle range of supports.  I have never had a case manager myself.  Studied with one when I was doing counselling at VU, seen how they interact with my son, twisting face up in a grimace, trying to be polite about them.

If the referral is to Spectrum, https://www.spectrumbpd.com.au/treatment-services 

it may be worth hanging in there for long term benefits, and the end of feeling passed around. Nobody likes feeling that way, and if the system is to earn its crust, proper referral is part of it.  I really hope you get good care and you let us know if it is meeting your needs.

Frustration in the meantime is hopefully shortlived.

cheers Apple

[Shaz51]

sitting with you and sending hugs @Appleblossom , @EternalFlower , @LeChuck ❤️

[tonys]

@EternalFlower   hello  eternal  flower.  I'm so sorry I didnt reply earlier.   I mistakenly thought it would take me back to somewhere I had just escaped from.   Trying to avoid alpha's.    Its a full time job. I have been missing your progress because every time I get unfriendly posts I unsubscribe. so  i'm glad you found me here but when your letter showed in my mail box it didnt show your tag to me so I was to nervous to open it.  sounds silly  but I have a handicaped brain. 

Eternal flower,  I'm sorry people are palming you off in the system,  So much more funding is needed to help people cope with the world we have built.   

I do hope you understand that if you ever hurt yourself,  you are doing that injury to all of us that know and love you as well.  If you ever  ever  feel like that please pick up the phone straight away.   Actually ring people before you start to get that way.

Now   I do like to see what you are doing with your little home.  That takes a awful lot of effort

and I'm so proud of you my little trogon warrior.   Every little step is progress.  Mate my place is a mess and I have good NDIS  funding...   the big big problem is finding people in the rural districts who want the work.    I make em lunch and send them home with jam and veggies,  and I still cant get the help.   Most don't get to spend their funding around here as there is such a demand  coming from an ageing population.   My book keeper left today for some writers fest so on my own with a bad hernia I got last week being silly.

Any way look at me having a good old whinge,   lets get back to you.   

So,  I will keep an eye on my mail. and  please just try to think about the little improvements you make each day..  and let me know how you are going.   when I just needed to smile today as I smelt my burnt snags I forgot on the stove,  I thought about you and that little fellow le chuck,   I sense something very pure in you both and I'm glad to see he is one of the many good friends you have in your tent.

Best thoughts I can muster I send in a balloon too you my friend.   tonys moon base one.    

[EternalFlower]

Hi @LeChuck didnt realise ur in hospital , is it a helpful space? Please respond only if u want to , no pressure at all.

@tonys absolutely get that , im happy u can tell me and dont worry if u can't reply. I stopped writing here but recently felt id try it again. Confident enough to.

I felt a bit better today but need to really take deep the reminder to seek help too.

@Appleblossomthanks for writing great points and support

[tonys]

hello @EternalFlower    Hope you are feeling a bit better today.  Mate, just a few lines to let you know I was thinking about you.   Its the little streams that lead to the headwaters.   Someone a while back left a big bunch of dried and plastic flowers at the fruit stand for me in exchange for vegies,  and it radiates smiles every day still.  We don't want the world do we. Just to know we are loved and cared for is all the possessions I need and I know there Its coming to your door to.   

I'm sorry to hear Le chuck is in hospital.     I know its a lot to ask.  could you please mention to him that I'm thinking of him, and wish him well   soon.

Big day on so will look in later tonight when the sun is snoring.  Hug from tonys  mb 1

[Appleblossom]

Snoring suns lol @tonys Wots the guitar pic for. Do you play?

@EternalFlower Gentle Hugs.  I am molto delicato today re physical body.  Just been in garden, had a call from a friend, and another friend booked a call with me later when I have to take son to doctor this afternoon.  Not so isolated anymore, which is a lovely feeling.  Have counsellor at 2.30 on zoom.  So busy enough.  

Keep hanging in there friends.

[LeChuck]

@EternalFlowerive been fortunate and it's been really good. The routine and the therapy really help me. Still feeling rough but I feel like I'm in the right place. Thanks for caring 🙂

[EternalFlower]

@LeChuck happy to hear. I hope u feel safe and comfortable. We're still here as little or as much as you like ❤️

[EternalFlower]

@tonys youre right we all need someone by the door.

Got a funny text today from ex partner who has moved back to australia after years abroad.

I did reply but old links sometimes more stress than anything else. Reminding myself i dont kwe anyone anything ..

Feeling bit better today slept somewhat ok which was helpful and took some time out today for myself to just people watch.

My heart is grateful for this space, it is hard sometimes to reach out and share and especially when theres anxiety and fears so thank you for making it easy